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Christina Walker

Tuesday, May 05, 2015

Hello!  My name is Christina, but my friends call me Stina.  I’m a twenty-something year old woman who was born and raised a Christian in the BEAUTIFUL state of Colorado.  I live alone with my wonderful, nearly-deaf puppy Wash, who right now is going through his adolescent rebellious phase.  Oh the joys of chasing him for digging in the flower bed!


Like most Christians raised going to Sunday School and youth groups, I have been made aware of my relationship with Jesus from Day One.  I remember in Kid’s Choir singing “This Little Light of Mine” and believing Satan was a mean bully kid for always blowing my candle out!  For most my life, I have been in a continuous cycle of sin and repentance and guilt and prayers for help.


I’m not sure if you can relate, but the cycle goes something like this for me:

  sin sin sin,

    feel guilt for sin but keep sinning anyways,

      repent and beg God for forgiveness and help with not sinning,

        walk close with God,

          resist temptations,

            temptations look tastier and tastier…

              still resisting,

                maybe just once won’t hurt…?

                  Oh well, I messed up, might as well make it worth it,

                    sin sin sin…


And repeat.


Throughout my life I have questioned why it was so hard for me to live as Jesus called me to.  I've thought, Maybe I don’t really have enough faith?  Maybe God hasn't given me His Spirit?  This is HIS FAULT then!  Does God even actually exist?  And if He does, how could He really care about me?  I’m so insignificant!  And probably not good enough anyways…


Well, friends, I was right.  I’m not good enough.  And, the most beautiful thing about not being good enough is that’s the whole point!!


Jesus said, “It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick.  I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners.” Mark 2:17


And Paul writes in Ephesians 2:8-9, “For it is by grace you have been saved, through FAITH - and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God - not by works, so that no one can boast.”


Jesus came for the sinners.  For the people who knew they needed Him and could not live a righteous life without Him.  And our faith in His love for us, His sacrifice for us, is what makes us right before God.  Nothing we could ever do or say will earn His acceptance.


“But can He really love me?”  When Wash digs in the flower bed, or refuses to come when I wave him over, or decides its a good idea to run across the gravel road to check out the corn field, I get angry and scared and upset but I NEVER stop loving him.  Any of you who have a pet or child I’m sure can relate.


He’s going to mess up and make mistakes.  Sometimes on purpose!  But he’s mine and I love every red and white hair on his wiggly, tummy-rub loving body.  And that, friend, is how God feels about you and I.


Paul writes in Romans 8:38-39 “For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”


Can you imagine that?!  Nothing. NOTHING can separate us from God’s love of us!  Not even ourselves, not even our sin!  Jesus loves us and calls us while we are still sinners.  


And THAT is the part that gets scary.  THAT is the purpose of Faith Bloopers.  Called.  The word rings with the sound of purpose, of work, of duty and responsibility.  Ugh!  Jesus calls us to live as He did.  He calls us to share the message described above with the world.  I don’t know about you, but both those purposes seem scary and difficult to me.


And I want you to know that you’re not alone in the scariness.  You’re not alone in your hesitations, reservations, doubts, or sometimes even flat-out refusals.  We have all been there, done that.  But God wants you to live out your purpose, no matter how scary and difficult it gets.  


So in Faith Bloopers, I hope the Spirit uses the stories of my own struggles with living out my purpose to inspire and encourage you.  I pray that we can create a community of believers that support and help one another with living how we were created to live!  Please, comment, share your stories, like and follow.  


Let’s create a movement of Christ followers who can find humor in our mistakes, who know - not just believe, but really know that our mistakes can’t separate us from God’s love, and who use our bloopers to become stronger and to strengthen others.  Let’s stop allowing our mistakes to drive us farther and farther from God.  He died to be with us, so we’d better make sure to live with Him!